Evil Wrapped in a Fangirl Disguise

I feel as though I have let an opportunity pass me by.



This Philosophy final is kicking my ass and I'm terribly frustrated about it. It's not a hard paper, not by a long shot. The paper's supposed to be about what I think, for crying out loud. The problem is that the subject of Philosophy, perhaps it is only the fault of the class I am currently in, but this subject of Philosophy is just not clicking in my head. You know how there are some subjects that just take hold and you can easily follow, understand, and *gasp* even care about? For me, this isn't one of them. And that seriously frustrates me. Because I want to be able to handle this stuff and understand it, but it's like there's a road block in my mind.

EB thinks I should turn in a final consisting of "Philosophy is mostly a load of crap."

I also finally got my financial aid award letter. They gave me off-campus work study, which I am not happy about since the library only takes on-campus work study. I am currently working to remedy this situation. Have gotten the form filled out and turned in, so here's hoping. *crosses fingers*

I have tentatively started work on a (another) larger story idea. I say larger because I mean longer than a short story. I want something with a lot of substance. Yes, I am a little overly ambitious. At any rate, instead of having a character or idea pop into my head first, as usually happens, a setting was the first to appear. (This may actually be the fault of the last Thursday Next book.) Not a complete setting, but some specifics that are lending themselves very nicely to a whole picture. And I find that the more I think about/add to the settings and landscape, characters and plot are popping up almost by themselves. I am tickled with the novelty of this idea. Here's hoping it works.

I think I actually say that about everything I start writing, but it is becoming a trend that I do not finish things. Except for my play, which had to be finished, but I'm still damn proud of. Why can't I always be that funny?

That almost makes me want to write a "sequel" or "spin-off" with Richard and Cassandra. It could be cheesy in every sense of the word. And oh-so-much fun because I <3 Richard. He's such a boob. (And Ike played him wonderfully. Thank you, Ike, wherever you are!)

And DUDE! promo pics for the Farscape mini-series movie are out. OMG. These pictures make me incredibly happy. I can't wait!

Back to Philosophy....

I had one of the best rehearsals last Wednesday. It's the strangest thing. I've been to many rehearsals before, but last Wednesday everything really seemed to click. It could have been that one of the more trying actors left mid-way through, but I like to think that everyone was just really into what they were doing.

The first part of the rehearsal was for taping and line memorization of the first scene. Nothing exciting. Was shown once again that Ike may not know his lines, but he still adds more emphasis than some who do. But the second half was where things really got interesting. Directing is great, but I miss actually acting. Instead of just reading for the people who were gone I actually got up and filled in. I had so much fun! We did a lot with staging and movement, adding several things that should turn out to be hilarious in the finished product. They were certainly funny enough during rehearsal. Most of them have to do with the treatment of the butler whenever he enters. Can't wait to do more with it.

I feel so flattered. Last Friday Performing Arts read thru my play and Mr. Pratz let me go to it. It was so funny! I hate to say it, but I crack myself up! Anyway, today both Joe and Autumn approached me about who they should try out for. Joe also wanted me to talk Joy out of trying out for Kendra. Hmm. The fact that they want to try out for it at all makes me deliriously happy. :D Also, Autumn was worried she wouldn't do well. :( I thought she was pretty good during the read thru. Auditioning is a pain sometimes. I assured them that they would be cast in the role thought best for them. Auditioning will begin next week.

I have a new favorite movie! Amélie is the cutest thing since . . . since . . . baby Hobbits. It's funny and sweet and colorful and French. I love it. It's just the sort of thing I've needed to see and haven't found. And the music is lovely, too.

Today we started a huge group project in Neiffer's. Cody is in my group. Heh. Our topic is water/water pollution and we are supposed to write an argument essay. Meaning I have to research the pro's of water pollution. Or rather, take the industries POV that "oh, we don't cause pollution" and "pollution isn't a problem". So far research is turning up . . . zilch. Oh, and Mrs. Neiffer gave a speech about the whole group writing/typing it, not just one person. Steve thinks she was specifically talking about our vocab group. *blush* But I still maintain that I didn't do all of the work. Everyday we worked on it we all sat down together, discussed where the story should go, what vocab words we should use, etc. I simply glued it together. Besides, we all got perfect scores so there. AND I had talked to Neiffer previously about concerns within the group.

You don't think she was really disappointed over it? Unhappy with us? With me? Damn.

Had my meeting with Mrs. Lafser yesterday and it went really well. Not that I was expecting anything else really. I showed her all of the notes I had taken on it since last year and what I had highlighted and wanted to keep and what I didn't, all of which she liked. So that's great! Woo. We discussed possible casting decisions, ie. practically have the Bad Comedian cast already. There is only one person we could think of for the part. Must go talk to Ike . . . And then we set up a schedule of how we'd like to have things finished. So, here is my play schedule as of yesterday:

-first draft done by January 6
-play finalized by mid-February
-casting done by March 1
-10 week rehearsal period for performance in May

Wow. I have a schedule. I feel so very accomplished at the moment that it's not even funny. I have my characters set, my plot basically plotted, and the scenes are taking shape. *giggles* I'm a writer!

In other news, Mum, Dad, Tom and I went and saw CoS last night. My third time, Mum's first. We sat apart from the guys because they're just silly. Except they ended up sitting behind us and trying to scare me everytime the spiders appeared. After awhile it ceased being creepy and was just annoying. Before the movie started I ended up discussing HP with two anonymous kids sitting infront of me. Random conversation!! It was fun! And then I talked a little to the tiny little girl who sat next to me. She must've been all of 6 at the oldest I think. Handled the movie very well. She was adorable at the end. "Run Harry! Run! . . . Don't do that!" It was cute.

Once the movie was over, Mum's first comment as the credits began was, "You're right, he does make a good Tom Riddle." Of course I'm right. I'm always right about these things. We also nudged each other everytime Oliver Wood was so much as in the shot. Fun times.

( Seattle U Adventure )

Had big long rant about people thinking I'm deficient and LJ ate it. Blergh. Probably for the best though.

Anyway, get to see CoS on Friday night for the third time. Woo!! *dies*

HBO showed their behind the scenes look of CoS and now they're showing PS. I'm in my Happy Place.

On Friday I finished reading Coraline and started The Thief Lord. Neesh's reaction to that on Monday was, "OMG! It's not a Neil Gaiman book!" *rolls eyes* But now she's asking to read Neverwhere. Oh yes, she shall read it. And like it. Mwuahaha. Then on Saturday the first Sandman book came and I just finished it. It just . . . ended. :( I want more durn it!

Tomorrow I audition for the Christmas performance. Nothing big. Nothing exciting. I'm auditioning for the part of one of the carolers and requesting work backstage. For one thing, none of the characters really caught me. For another, I feel backstage work would help with my Senior Project. Lastly, well, the less I have to worry about, the more time I can devote to writing MY play. Hope I can audition during fourth period and get out of Pre-Calc. *crosses fingers*

Am thinking of making my journal Ron-centric.

One final thought. The Mirror of Erised scene has not nearly the same effect on me when people snore through it.