Evil Wrapped in a Fangirl Disguise

Sometimes it feels like the newspaper is slowly chipping away at my soul. Or my will to...do anything. And this is only my third month!

It makes me go to tense city council meetings when I'd much rather curl up with a blanket and watch new NCIS. ::pout::

Subbed at the middle/high school library today. Some punk kid tried to pull a fast one on me. But I rule with an iron fist and put a stop to it.

She came in, was looking at the books on the hold "shelf" (right by the check-in/out computer) and while I was busy helping another kid, she wandered over to the shelves. Thirty seconds later she wandered back with the second Diary of a Wimpy Kid book and was ready to go.

I thought the book looked very familiar. Like, oh, wasn't that just with the other books on hold less than a foot away from me? Yes, yes it was. But I scanned it anyway and a prompt came up asking if I wanted to take it off of hold. I clicked no and explained the situation to the girl. She was all, "But books on hold are supposed to be over there," pointing at the shelf.

Instead of outright calling her on it (I'm not much for confrontation), I said that sometimes things get put in the wrong spot and, sorry, I can't check this out to you. So I wrote down the hold name and stuck it on the book and put the book back in its spot.

Straightening the books on hold before the end of the day, guess what I found? The original note with the hold request stuck to another book. I had thought about peeking in the trash that's right there, but she didn't even care enough to try that.

Hold request notes. Heh. They're sticky notes, people.

Anyway. The girl proceeded to check out one book, return it, and then check out something else in the ten minutes that followed. Weird.

And now city council. I expect DRAMA tonight. And will maybe even be a little disappointed if there isn't any, even if I don't want to write about it afterward.

I'm not that into horoscopes, but when I got home from the library I ended up on my Yahoo account and today's caught my eye.

If you've been feeling overwhelmed lately, it's probably because you are pushing yourself way too hard! Reset your agenda today, and make sure you are not spreading yourself too thin. If you're tired, take a nap. If you're sick of dealing with whiners, get some quiet alone time. Listen to your body and follow your mood, whatever hits you, whenever it hits you, today. Not every day has to be full of activities and accomplishments. It's a day you should spend focusing on your own needs.

It seemed semi-appropriate. Especially because lately I've been thinking about something a teacher of mine told senior year of high school when I had a break-down in front of her regarding my senior project. She was very understanding - and I think a lot of students would have been surprised by this - and asked me to really try to explain what was wrong. And then she told me to stop trying to do everything myself. "If you need help, ask for it."

It's not really that I don't ask for help, I just...don't always. I don't like to be a burden or disappoint people, and that leads me to sometimes biting off more than I can chew. But when I pull through in the end anyway, it looks like everything was fine. Which is why, I guess, professors never seemed to think I was nervous giving presentations. The woman who does my contact prescriptions told me last time when I told her about the newspaper writing that I project calm. Heh. Right.

Anyhoo. I am settling into things. This week has just been weird since I've been covering the library and covering meetings, though I didn't have to go to the fire district tonight. Yesterday got to me a little because I opened down in Mattawa and the librarian was supposed to be back by one so I could get to the Port meeting in Royal at four. But, because of prescription orders, she didn't get back until three. Which was fine, since I got into town with enough time to catch a bite of food with Mom before the meeting. I just spent some time freaking out about it and dealing with no phone reception and trying to set up interviews in Othello.

It was a little hectic. But over now! Yea! And tomorrow I don't have to go anywhere, I just have to write.