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[annundriel]

Yesterday was Senior Skip Day but I, loser that I am, did not skip. Why? you may ask. Because I think it is wrong. Or something. I rather liked what Nate said. "You didn't want to hang out with those ass wipes." Which, though not exactly how I would have phrased it, is pretty much true. So, instead of following a bunch of mindless ninnies to Vantage, I had a nice quiet day at school. I only went to four of my seven classes and didn't even do anything in the ones I went to. It was very relaxing. Wish that every day there was only three other people in my classes.

I wonder what happened to the mindless ninnies? Hmmm.

I just realized I've got nothing interesting to say. Oh, except that I do feel really really good about this new story I'm working on. I may have finally found something to spend writing time on. Yea me.

Comments

Reality & Ditching

[dragonsxist.livejournal.com]

I completely agree with you when you say, "Reality is what we make of it and nothing is ever really what it appears to be on the surface." I've always been really interested in whats real and what isn't. Perhaps this is one of the reasons I have always liked the paranormal.

Its funny, this past year was my first year in college. Near the end of my senior year I was hanging out with one of my friends and my mom happened to walk by when I mentioned I hadn't ditched on Senior Ditch Day. Her reaction was nothing like what I imagined it would be. She was shocked, "You didn't ditch? Why?" She told me she did and she was surprised that I hadn't. The next day my friend and I ditched school and went down to the beach. It was really great. It just reminded me of that when I read what you had written about not ditching.

Re: Reality & Ditching

[annundriel.livejournal.com]

Life is up to interpretation and that's all there is to it. I've noticed this more and more the last few years. Especially with various things like, oh, war going on in the world. Opposing sides always believe they're the one's in the right. I'm not sure how you feel about this, so maybe I'll keep my mouth shut. I'll say that I've had a fairly liberal upbringing with a family very much into discussion. Anyway, back to my point. Life is up to interpretation. And life is reality. Therefore reality is up to interpretation and consequently different for every single person ever in the history of the world.

Ah, yes. I find myself becoming more and more interested in the paranormal. I blame shows like "Buffy" and "Angel". They make me question why things happen like they do and what the purpose of everything is.

As to seniors ditching. Well, it does seem the thing to do. I was called a loser by one of my teachers. He was joking and I do openly admit that I'm the lamest of lame people. I think I would have if I lived somewhere with something to do for a smaller group. (If we had a beach I'd probably be skipping.) As it was there were rumors of "unsafe activities" and I'm just a stick-in-the-mud. I spent the day doing "boring" things, like writing.

Ditching Ditching

[dragonsxist.livejournal.com]

As far as bing a stic in the mud, I am pretty sure I know exactly what you mean. I personally would rather stay home and watch a movie than go out with friends. Its just the kind of person I am.

In your last entry you mentioned that you were writing. Do you mind if I ask whether you write poetry?

Re: Ditching Ditching

[annundriel.livejournal.com]

I would much rather read a good book than risk any trouble from ditching. My other problem is one of my best friends is a junior this year. Not a lot of fun without her.

I write a lot of stuff. Mostly fiction, mostly unfinished. However, I have written one or two poems. One that I'm very happy with. Do you write?

Writing

[dragonsxist.livejournal.com]

I used to write a lot. One of my poems was published, which is cool. In a way its as though I left some kind of mark out there for people to see. However, it has been a while since I have written anything. Its funny too, because I have some good ideas for stories, but I don't know if I will ever write anything. The only stories I have ever really written have been for school.

As far as beyond that, who knows? It would be great though if I could write something someday that would really make people think, d'you know what I mean? There are so many great authors out there, many of them I know I will probably never even get to read. I am a perfectionist, and never happy with what I've created, because in my eyes I could always have done better. So it would probably take me years to write anything, even remotely good. Its funny, because as it is, after I'm done writing a journal entry, I'll re-read it, and edit it several times before I leave it alone. Fix spelling errors, change a few words here and there that sound better, and whatnot. As long as I can work on it until I'm at least happy with it. Otherwise I just wouldn't be able to leave it alone.

Re: Writing

[annundriel.livejournal.com]

I've never actually had anything published. There have been several things of mine that I've almost had published, but I never quite got around to actually getting them out there. There was a report I wrote on Ebola, a story I wrote for English, a poem last year, and the piece of writing I've been mentioning the most, my play. My play is my baby. It was the first piece of my writing that I've had presented publicly. I wrote and co-directed it for my Senior Project and my high school's drama club performed it. I am insanely proud of it. I am looking into possibly getting it published.

As for other stories, well, most of them have been for school. A lot of the time I get a story idea and I'll scribble it down, but it will never get farther than that. This is mostly because I'm afraid that I'll screw it up when it actually comes down to writing it and than hate myself with a passion because I screwed it up. I think I've figured out part of my problem though.

I have a real problem when it comes to decision making. (Should I do this? Should I do that?) It's very hard for me to settle on one thing sometimes. I find now that if I just force myself to make the choice between one road and the other that as soon as I make my choice, I'm set. I'm currently working on two stories and one of them should prove to be fairly long. It's a combination of ideas I had months ago and one I had recently. Whether or not I actually finish it is a completely different issue, but right now I'm happy with it because as a writer I've forced myself to make choices. And, you know, as a writer I can always go back and change it anyway.

It would be great to write something that makes people think or see something like they never saw it before. But it's hard to come up with something new. I got a book for graduation ("The Right to Write") and one of the things it says is you shouldn't beat yourself up because you can't write something new because there's not much new to write. Which may or may not be true. I've read a lot of stuff, but every time I read something by Neil Gaiman I'm presented with a different view of something.

I used to obsess compulsively about perfection in my posts. I hate sounding like an idiot. I hate the whole reply system on LJ because there is not "Edit" button. What were they thinking? I've gotten better lately though. At various boards where I post I've stopped using the "Preview" button over and over again.