Hmmm

Yesterday at this time my life was pretty darn good, since then my life has gone bad. I don't really feel like saying the particular reason why my life feels really crappy at the moment, but I need to get some of this feeling out. So let's just say that I screwed up big time and there's probably no way to fix it. I found out that I had screwed up last night right when I was thinking of going to bed. This is a very bad time to have things running around in your head. You don't want to think about things so you think, "I shall go to sleep", but you can't go to sleep because you can't stop thinking about things. They just keep going around and around in your head with scenarios about how you could have done something differently, how things will turn out in a good way, how things will turn out in a bad way, etc. There's no end to it but one. And that end is forever in sight but always two steps ahead. When we need a break from the world, why won't our brains let us sleep?

Anyway. So today I'm trying to see if there is anyway to fix the situation that I've gotten myself into.

In other, more trivial, news we went and saw Seabiscuit on Sunday. It was very very good. The best movie I've seen in awhile, actually. (No trailer for M&C though.) I haven't felt that emotionally involved with a film for awhile.

Yesterday Neesha and Katie came over and we watched Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets and than an hour of P&P. It was fun. And Neesh borrowed P&P and The Ring despite the fact that she is staying at Kate's house and Kate won't watch scary movies. Not that I blame Kate or anything. I don't plan on watching The Ring again anytime soon.

Our cooler weather has continued and I'm very glad for that.

Today is also the first anniversary of Grandpa's death. In many ways it feels as though less and more than a year has passed. That probably doesn't make much sense. But it feels as though he's been gone forever and hardly gone at all all in the same breath. Barb has taken Grandma out to lunch, so it's nice that Grandma won't be home working all day.

I would just like to say...

...that I am not as entirely crackers as my last entry may have made me sound. I am much better now.

This afternoon I went with Mom to Moses so that I could get shot. Er, a shot rather. To protect me against nasty diseases in college dorms. Didn't hurt a bit. It took me longer to fill out the papers they gave me than to actually get the shot. I did not, however, get a sticker. But I do have a band-aid on my arm and it is sticky so maybe I'll be happy with that.

After that we went to Wal-Mart and bought some school supplies. I love school supplies. I could spend hours in Office Depot just looking at the pens and pencils and paper and sticky notes. Hmmm...You know how I started this off by saying I wasn't entirely crackers? Yeah, just remember that I'm in denial. Anyway. I got a roll of film developed. And it was a fairly old roll. It had pictures from Homecoming Week on it! That was fun.

So, yeah. I spent the evening going through previously developed pictures that have been around forever and labeled and organized and stuck in my new-ish photo album. So now all of the pictures worth sticking in a book are stuck in a book and ready to be shown off to the world!! That is to say the few people I trick into getting close enough for me to force them to look. Mwuahahaha. EB also called. I almost tripped over the vacuum in my excitement.

Tomorrow I am off to Seattle for at least ten days. I will get to spend time at EB's!!! I am happy for that. We are going to do all kinds of crazy stuff.