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annundrielYesterday at this time my life was pretty darn good, since then my life has gone bad. I don't really feel like saying the particular reason why my life feels really crappy at the moment, but I need to get some of this feeling out. So let's just say that I screwed up big time and there's probably no way to fix it. I found out that I had screwed up last night right when I was thinking of going to bed. This is a very bad time to have things running around in your head. You don't want to think about things so you think, "I shall go to sleep", but you can't go to sleep because you can't stop thinking about things. They just keep going around and around in your head with scenarios about how you could have done something differently, how things will turn out in a good way, how things will turn out in a bad way, etc. There's no end to it but one. And that end is forever in sight but always two steps ahead. When we need a break from the world, why won't our brains let us sleep?
Anyway. So today I'm trying to see if there is anyway to fix the situation that I've gotten myself into.
In other, more trivial, news we went and saw Seabiscuit on Sunday. It was very very good. The best movie I've seen in awhile, actually. (No trailer for M&C though.) I haven't felt that emotionally involved with a film for awhile.
Yesterday Neesha and Katie came over and we watched Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets and than an hour of P&P. It was fun. And Neesh borrowed P&P and The Ring despite the fact that she is staying at Kate's house and Kate won't watch scary movies. Not that I blame Kate or anything. I don't plan on watching The Ring again anytime soon.
Our cooler weather has continued and I'm very glad for that.
Today is also the first anniversary of Grandpa's death. In many ways it feels as though less and more than a year has passed. That probably doesn't make much sense. But it feels as though he's been gone forever and hardly gone at all all in the same breath. Barb has taken Grandma out to lunch, so it's nice that Grandma won't be home working all day.
Anyway. So today I'm trying to see if there is anyway to fix the situation that I've gotten myself into.
In other, more trivial, news we went and saw Seabiscuit on Sunday. It was very very good. The best movie I've seen in awhile, actually. (No trailer for M&C though.) I haven't felt that emotionally involved with a film for awhile.
Yesterday Neesha and Katie came over and we watched Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets and than an hour of P&P. It was fun. And Neesh borrowed P&P and The Ring despite the fact that she is staying at Kate's house and Kate won't watch scary movies. Not that I blame Kate or anything. I don't plan on watching The Ring again anytime soon.
Our cooler weather has continued and I'm very glad for that.
Today is also the first anniversary of Grandpa's death. In many ways it feels as though less and more than a year has passed. That probably doesn't make much sense. But it feels as though he's been gone forever and hardly gone at all all in the same breath. Barb has taken Grandma out to lunch, so it's nice that Grandma won't be home working all day.
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Date: 2003-08-06 01:24 am (UTC)Explain if you feel comfortable doing so. I love you!
Neesh
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Date: 2003-08-06 01:19 pm (UTC)Thanks. It's all better now. May tell you in an e-mail though (or you may even read it on LJ) if I decide it's not as completely embarrassing as it felt like it was.
Love you!!