I already mentioned how beautiful I find the section in which Dean considers the possibility that Castiel might have come to him in a female vessel and concludes, first, that the important thins is that it would still be Castiel, and second, that he really would miss the form he's become involved with, the shifting balance of power, the love...inextricably wound together with some very hot and kinky porn. You have such a gift for this; I remain in awe.