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annundriel ([personal profile] annundriel) wrote2010-07-21 06:30 pm

SPN RPS Fic: Showtime, Jensen/Misha, Dean/Castiel (NC-17)

Showtime
Jensen/Misha, Dean/Castiel
NC-17
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[livejournal.com profile] blindfold_spn fill originally posted here for the prompt: Showtime has bought Supernatural and wants to push the Dean/Castiel relationship to gain viewers. When Jensen and Misha have to film their first kissing/hookup (not sex) scene together, it's the first time they've ever touched each other like that -- even though they've both thought about it -- and things get out of hand. Since it's Showtime, the director lets the camera continue to roll while they kiss and rut against each other to climax, without ever fully taking off their clothes. Author's choice what happens when the scene ends. Bonus if the cut footage gets leaked to the internet.

Contains frottage, character bleed, and exhibitionism. Sex in public may hit embarrassment squicks.


Getting picked up by a network like Showtime can mean a lot of things. For Supernatural, it means a longer life. For Dean and Sam, it means more monsters to fight—more graphically—and more people to save. For Dean and Castiel it means…well. It means there’s nothing holding them, or the writers, back from finally cashing in on all of the staring, the invasions of personal space, the I did it all for you’s.

For Jensen and Misha, it means becoming a lot closer than they were previously.

Not talking about it is a mutual agreement. At least, Jensen’s pretty sure it is; since they’re not talking about it, they never actually say anything on the subject at all, even to agree not to. All Jensen knows is that Misha never approaches him about it, not even to tease. Jensen’s sure Misha isn’t uncomfortable with it, which makes him wonder if Misha thinks he is.

That’s not the case, not the way people might think. The only thing that makes Jensen uncomfortable with the situation is the possibility that he might come in his pants as soon as Misha touches him—as soon as Cas touches Dean—like a teenager because he’s been thinking about just such a situation for so long.

So they don’t talk about it. They up the UST—what? Jensen has access to the internet—and concern. There’s more staring and touching and confiding. There’s even a hug, a lingering one, that Jensen knows Dean and Cas fans have been salivating for since halfway through season four.

It’s actually kind of fun, easing Dean and Cas into this new relationship, these new roles that really aren’t that different from their old ones.

And then they get the script with the kiss, the first kiss. Nothing too dirty, nothing too fancy, just a relief fueled, thank god you’re alive kiss. A kiss that’s meant to surprise, finally push the characters into acknowledging exactly what lies between them.

They don’t rehearse it. There’s a part of Jensen, the part that fantasizes about Misha knocking on his trailer door and then pinning him to it, that would like to, but there’s a larger part that wants to keep the newness of this thing happening between their characters, the feeling of first and finally fresh for the scene, for the cameras, the audience. The characters.

It doesn’t seem fair to Dean and Castiel to muddy what they have with what Jensen feels for Misha.

They get to the day, they get to the scene, and Jensen feels tremors in his stomach that don’t resemble butterflies so much as Mothra running amuck. His hands are sweaty and his heart pounds too fast and every time he looks at Misha, Misha’s looking back, eyes wide and dark and unfathomable, and Jensen thinks, fuck, what are they doing?

The find their marks, take their places, the director calling action.

They’re in a motel room. Sam’s in the bathroom—and Jensen’s so grateful Jared isn’t around to actually witness this—and Dean’s pacing, worried. They’d run into a group of demons that were stronger than they expected, stronger and angrier, who’d gotten the drop on them, somehow managed to take Castiel out, right under their noses. And they’d had to leave, had to jump in the Impala and drive away from Cas because they didn’t have the knowledge or the firepower to do anything but get their asses handed to them.

Dean feels sick to his stomach, hates the idea that he’s failed someone else he cares for, that they’ll never see Cas again. That he’ll never see Cas again.

But then there’s the sound of wings and Dean’s turning and Cas is there, right there. There’s blood on his temple, the sleeve of his coat, but he’s alive. And thank fucking god because Dean doesn’t want to lose him; not now, not yet, not ever.

“Cas,” he breathes, relief making his voice tremble, and before he knows it he’s taking three steps across the room, reaching out for Cas, fingers finding his jaw, hands cupping his face, their lips finally, finally meeting as Dean seizes the moment and kisses him.

It’s so much better than he imagined it would be, and Jensen’s not sure if that’s Dean’s thought, or his own.

Castiel’s hands find Dean’s hips, and Dean groans, pushes Cas back until they’re stopped by a wall, and Jensen knows they’re going off-script, knows that he should pull back and stop, get his hormones under control and continue with the scene as written, but he can’t. He’s lost all ability to care about what they’re meant to be doing, who’s watching, what might be seen, because Misha’s mouth is on his and it’s fucking made to be kissed, wide and wet and welcoming, generous. Teasing. Jensen doesn’t want to stop, doesn’t want to pull away. Wants only to push his cock against Misha’s hip, rub against him until he’s coming like he feared he would.

Except it won’t be that way at all, because Misha makes a noise like a whimper and opens up to Jensen, let’s Jensen in, fingers clutching at Jensen’s hips, pulling him forward, to him, and Jensen can feel Misha hard against him, even through the layers of their clothes.

They’re in this together, Jensen and Misha, Dean and Cas.

Jensen slips a thigh between Misha’s, gives him something to rub against, rut against, changing the angle of his hips as they move, slotting together.

Their mouths slide against each other, hot and perfect, lips and teeth and tongues colliding as their hips move together, as their fingers clutch and tangle in coats and shirts, tugging and pulling and pushing until they’re a rumpled mess, grinding against a wall in a fake motel room, racing toward release, completely lost.

Jensen bites at Misha’s lip, pulls away and nips at Misha’s jaw, tongues at his stubble, and suddenly it’s Misha who is coming in his pants, shuddering and groaning and gripping at Jensen as though his life depends on it. All Jensen can do is hold on, push back against Misha as Misha thrusts against him, tuck his face into the curve of Misha’s neck and come so hard he doesn’t think his knees will hold him.

It’s only then, with the sounds between them fading to soft gasps for air, that Jensen freezes, face still hidden against Misha’s neck.

You could hear a pin drop on set.

“I think that’s a cut,” the director finally says. Jensen’s surprised he didn’t call it sooner, though he’s fairly certain he wouldn’t have heard it if he had. Or paid attention to it.

“That was, uh, some nice improvisation, guys,” he adds. “Fifteen minutes, and then we’ll continue.”

Jensen waits as he hears the crew file out, feels like the biggest chickenshit on the planet, because he’s still hiding against Misha, leaving Misha to face them as they go. Misha starts shaking against him once they’re alone, and Jensen’s afraid to look, but he does anyway.

The bastard is laughing.

“What’s so funny?” Jensen asks, unable to fight the smile that’s pulling at the corners of his mouth.

“We would have been doing this a lot sooner if the CW were more like Showtime, wouldn’t we?”

Misha’s hands are still on his hips, thumbs sliding across bare skin. Jensen shivers. “Yeah,” he says. “Probably.”

Misha tilts his head, and it’s so weirdly Castiel-like that Jensen can’t help but think about Cas and Dean and what happens next for them, how much they deserve to find some happiness, some belonging, the two of them and Sam.

“Well,” Misha says, licking his lips. “We’ll just have to make up for lost time.”

That sounds good to Jensen.

Misha leans forward, kisses him. “In the meantime,” he adds, “make-up is going to hate us.”

*

They are two episodes into the first Showtime season when the footage gets leaked on the internet. Misha’s the one who finds it, who grabs Jensen wrist and pulls him down on the couch with him to watch the clip online.

It’s weird seeing it. It’s them, but it’s also Dean and Cas. Or it’s Dean and Cas, but it’s also them. Jensen’s not really sure; it makes his head hurt a little.

It’s hot, though, that’s for sure. He knows they’re both attractive, so obviously they should be attractive together, but there’s something about watching Misha’s face as Jensen’s mouth finds his jaw, watching Misha’s hands grip at him, his own hips work, that hits Jensen in ways he wasn’t expecting.

And, god, the sounds Misha makes…even on tinny laptop speakers, they’re something else.

Jensen squirms beside him on the couch, and Misha smirks at him, plays the clip again.

[identity profile] sycophantastic.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god... *incapable of articulating much else at the moment*

*blinks slowly* Guh. Yes.

I'm sure someone else will have something a lot more insightful to say. I just... I kind of feel like starting a slow clap or something. :)

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:16 am (UTC)(link)
\o/

I'm so happy it worked for you! Thank you!

[identity profile] the-lady-revan.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 02:31 am (UTC)(link)
First: HOLY FRAKING HELL that was hot! Wow. The way you get into both Jensen's and Dean's state of mind was perfect and you did it so smoothly there was no confusion at all. You could feel the desperation between both Dean/Cas and Jen/Misha.

Second: that may have been the best prompt ever. And I would die of fangirl joy if Showtime really bought SPN (if they went with the Dean/Cas pair and not a bunch of random het lol)

If you'll excuse me I just be heading down to my bunk..... to, uh, knit something...yeah...

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:21 am (UTC)(link)
The way you get into both Jensen's and Dean's state of mind was perfect and you did it so smoothly there was no confusion at all.

I was a little worried that it wouldn't work, so I was so happy to read that!

And, seriously, the things they could get up to on SPN if they were on a different channel...It's fun to imagine. ;)

I'm so glad that you liked it. Thank you!

[identity profile] hellozombies.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
I think this punched my kink button right in the face, good Lord almighty. I've been yelling at damn near anyone who will listen that if Supernatural were on Showtime or if either Dean or Cas were female that they would've hooked up by now. So this? This made me very happy. *____* Bless your little heart, you're such a trooper with the sexiness. ♥ Thanks for posting!!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
I've been yelling at damn near anyone who will listen that if Supernatural were on Showtime or if either Dean or Cas were female that they would've hooked up by now.

I believe it.

Thank you! I'm so happy that you liked it!

[identity profile] perfumaniac.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
JESUS CHRIST ON A POGOSTICK

This is the best thing that can happen right before I go to sleep.

*fans self*

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:26 am (UTC)(link)
\o/

Sweet dreams! ;)

[identity profile] adja999.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 03:46 am (UTC)(link)
Oh... jeez.... my...

Okay! Um. That's... *bursts into laugh*

That was awesome. Really. I'm always thinking HBO for SPN, you know, cause we get to see naked butts on True Blood all the time. Never thought about Showtime.

I love it. Really.

I liked how Jensen could want to keep the first surprise for the actual scene. And wow... what a way to get lost in the scene! I liked that Misha was the one not so much in control this time. Well, not that Jen was, really, but I liked that he was a bit less.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
I liked how Jensen could want to keep the first surprise for the actual scene.

Thank you! I really wanted to get that in there. Because it's a big moment and you want to do it justice, but you don't want it to look or feel rehearsed. And then with Jensen being worried about his own reaction to it...It made sense.

I'm so happy that you liked it!
Edited 2010-07-22 17:39 (UTC)

[identity profile] mulder200.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
For dean and Castiel it means…well.

I think you forget capitalize Dean here.

It’s only then, with the sounds between them fading to soft gasps for air, that Jensen freezes, face still hidden against Misha’s neck.

You could hear a pin drop on set.

“I think that’s a cut,” the director finally says. Jensen’s surprised he didn’t call it sooner, though he’s fairly certain he wouldn’t have heard it if he had. Or paid attention to it.

“That was, uh, some nice improvisation, guys,” he adds. “Fifteen minutes, and then we’ll continue.”


LOL! Talk about when reality and fantasy collide. I like the fact that Jensen and Misha were so into it that they forget they were on camera. How hot is that?!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:31 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing can keep that kind of chemistry from taking off and going places, not even a room full of people watching.

Thank you, I'm glad you liked it!

[identity profile] uwalumni2.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
I would just love it if this became reality! I just found it adorable visualizing Jensen, "because he’s still hiding against Misha, leaving Misha to face them as they go. Misha starts shaking against him once they’re alone, and Jensen’s afraid to look, but he does anyway.

The bastard is laughing.

“What’s so funny?” Jensen asks, unable to fight the smile that’s pulling at the corners of his mouth."

With Misha laughing...just adorable with Jensen hiding his face....the intensity between them...the pent up sexual tension finally exploding! GUH! Loved it! You rock like usual! :D

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
It would be a good reality, wouldn't it? Mmmm.

I'm so happy you liked it. Thank you!

[identity profile] ember-firedrake.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 05:18 am (UTC)(link)
\o/ Oh, this was lots of fun to read. And hot, really hot. Mostly-clothed sex is highly underrated. Also, I seriously liked the way you melded Jensen and Dean in this story. :)

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:36 am (UTC)(link)
Two things I find myself gravitating to when I write: sex against a wall and sex partially/mostly clothed. Mmmm. Combine those two and, yeah, I'm good.

I seriously liked the way you melded Jensen and Dean in this story.

Yea! I was a little nervous about how well that would work, and am really happy to hear that.

Thank you!
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[identity profile] bientot.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:15 am (UTC)(link)
JFC THIS WAS GREAT. Clearly they thought so too. I'd SO watch that (over and over and over and over and...).

(fanning self) What a swell bedtime story.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 06:38 am (UTC)(link)
Can you imagine? The views of something like that on YouTube would skyrocket.

I'm so happy that you liked it, thank you! :D
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[identity profile] qthelights.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 11:21 am (UTC)(link)
you know weirdly? this actually hit my embarrassment squick.. and I LOVE public sex.. but um.. public without being caught..and yet it was so hot that i pushed the squick aside and enjoyed the ride anyway.. because damn... HOT HOT HOT.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, I am so sorry! I didn't even think about that. :(

I'm glad you managed to enjoy it, though. Thank you.

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[identity profile] rock-chick-333.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
I LOVE YOU PLEASE MARRY ME.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:32 am (UTC)(link)
I could be persuaded. ;D

<3

[identity profile] love-jackianto.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
That was great!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:33 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you!!

[identity profile] shetiger.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 04:08 pm (UTC)(link)
anhijksL?A

Um. Words.

<3

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
Pfft. Words. Totally overrated. ;)

<333

[identity profile] lattimore.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 04:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I loved this fill on blindfold! There's something so terribly hot about character bleed, and the way the characters' tension alerts the guys to their very real attraction. And together with the kissing and the wall!sex...yup, all buttons pushed.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
There really is something about character bleed, isn't there? I don't think I'd thought about it much before - definitely not before SPN - but the last couple of months...yeah. Character bleed is full of possibilities.

I'm so glad you liked it! Thank you!
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[personal profile] grammarwoman 2010-07-22 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Such a dirty/hot/sweet blending of RPF/SPN! Wowsers, that's good.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so happy that you liked it! Thank you! :D

[identity profile] the-mad-duchess.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 07:51 pm (UTC)(link)
i want this to happen. wait, no.
i NEED this to happen. *drool*

He knows they’re both attractive, so obviously they should be attractive together
damn right! if only the writers would see that too...
loved it! <3

btw, im afraid that quote-thingie doesnt work with me :( it didnt last time.

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:44 am (UTC)(link)
It would be a lovely thing to happen, wouldn't it?

I'm so glad you liked it, thank you!

btw, im afraid that quote-thingie doesnt work with me :( it didnt last time.

I am...not entirely sure what you mean. What doesn't work?

[identity profile] marynyu.livejournal.com 2010-07-22 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I literaly went "Cut. That's a wrap people!" when they were, you know, done. *giggles*

Oh if only this video really existed out there on the net.... I think fangirls would explode with the hotness of it and SPN would lose it's audience XD

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-23 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
I think fangirls would explode with the hotness of it and SPN would lose it's audience

omg, that's the real reason they haven't gone there! They'd lose their fanbase! And what's a show without its fans?

[identity profile] vicious-sock.livejournal.com 2010-07-24 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Whoa that's a head trip and two hot porn all rolled in one. It's totes awesome!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-25 03:09 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you so much! I'm so glad you liked it. :D

[identity profile] wolfrider89.livejournal.com 2010-07-26 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*total and utter brainmelt going on here*

Ihoihfsdcnhejaons! Guh. HOT. Yes. HOT!

Did I mention hot?

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
You may have mentioned hot, yes. ;)

I'm so happy you liked it, thank you!
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[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-28 05:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Haha, Jared would get quite a surprise! I can see it afterward. "Wait, that's why you guys were acting so weird on set that day?"

I'm so happy that you liked it! Thank you!

[identity profile] writingpathways.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 02:13 am (UTC)(link)
Just. Yes. :-)

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-28 05:19 pm (UTC)(link)
\o/

I'm glad you liked it!

[identity profile] a-carnal-mink.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 06:07 am (UTC)(link)

Aw man, you give good porn. X-) And yeah - Jensen kinda hating himself ever-so-slightly for hiding his face in Misha's neck and letting Misha take the heat from the crew is ABSOLUTELY GOLDEN. :D Great job!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-29 05:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Hee! Poor Jensen. I'm sure later he will say he wasn't hiding, he was collecting himself. ;)

I'm so happy that you liked it! Thank you!

[identity profile] aythia.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
Guh, I want a clip like that to watch. I would watch it forever and ever!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-29 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The number of views a clip like that would get would be amazing.

I probably would stop getting anything done. ;)

[identity profile] zanyrainey.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
Syzygy can't come to the comment section at this time.
Please provide a towel for mopping up the drool.
Thank you!

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-29 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
::sends towel::


I'm glad you liked it!

[identity profile] miss-blueeyes.livejournal.com 2010-07-27 09:48 am (UTC)(link)
yes, please can this happen for real?? I would be so happy then

love it!! :D

[identity profile] annundriel.livejournal.com 2010-07-29 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
It would be kind of a treat, wouldn't it?

I'm so happy that you liked it! Thank you!

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